I have had a long break in writing. When I look for
excuses, I find some.
My readers had problems to leave their comments. I
tried to change the situation but for a long while to no avail. I believe that
it is now corrected but I am not sure if my new solution is not dependent on
the technical internet setup of the reader.
Then I wanted to concentrate on my internet presence
as a career transition coach. I considered blogging as a time consuming
interruption in what is most important to me – coaching as an ability to help
others to live better, happier, more fulfilling lives.
There was also another, perhaps the most important
reason for not writing. I came back home to Sydney and my Polish inspirations
disappeared. I still am not certain what I will be “observing” now. I feel like
I need a theme. I had not intended to write about Poland when I started blogging
but as I found myself in Poland and friends showed some interest in the country
I started to see things I had not been aware of earlier and I wrote about them.
For years I considered myself 100% Australian,
ignoring what I have been recently reminded of – my heavy foreign accent. The
accent has become more pronounced after my sojourns in Poland. At the same time
staying in Poland for extended periods of time made me re-discover the beauty and
character of my home country.
I am reading Diaries of Judy Cassab. Famous Australian
painter of Hungarian background. She writes about herself and migrants in
general: “Without the familiar background
no one is quite themselves, not in the eyes of the other or in their own. If
one rebels too strongly one destroys one’s soul. If one gives in, one stops
living. Is there a solution at all?”
This sounds very dramatic to me but still, I recognise
some of my dilemmas in what she writes.
So what I intend to write about, what will be objects
of my observations and musing? Not sure yet.
However, I promise myself to blog regularly from now
on. I may find my theme in time.