Friendship is one of my very core values. Since I was a small girl I
thought that friendship was the best a girl could experience. My mother was a
romantic at heart and supplied me with books that glorified friendship between
girls. I was the only child for 10 years. Then my brother appeared in my life
and the life of the family. By that time I did not need a small noisy thing at
home. It upset my world that was full of ideas I found in books. And I read the
books my romantic mother supplied me with. The main influence was Ann of Green
Gables and a book about a princess from Georgia . The second book
was a translation from Russian. It was a very old book, referred to as a
pre-war edition. Definitely a pre-communistic literature representing very
capitalistic ideas. The book must have been forbidden in Russia . The story was
about a princess who lost her mother, the unruly girl was placed by her loving
father in a boarding school. His decision, however, was influenced by a skimming and wicked woman.
The school was a very exclusive boarding school in Saint Petersburg . The princess
felt lonely but she found true friendship among her schoolmates.
Maybe I will be able to get this book when next time in Poland, a Polish translation though |
These were
friendships for life, till death do us part sort of thing. I responded to this
idea vehemently and this is how friendship became my top value that still is
the most important of them all. It represented love, honesty, unconditional
support, trust and many other beautiful things. Actually, I consider myself
most of all a friend. This is my label – I am a friend. It is a relatively new
realization even if friendship has been always present and sought for through
most of my life. There were times I thought I was a wife, a partner, a manager.
Now I know, I am most of all a friend. I do have my own Diana, the best friend
of Ann Shirley from the Green Gables. Our friendship does not go as far as the
grammar school but it goes to the first day at uni. It has been long enough to call her my friend
for life. She is now the most trusted person in my life and I am very happy and
grateful for that.
When I think about real friendship, I really have a friendship with a
woman in mind. That is how it was in those books. Boys did feature, unless they
were to become at some stage romantic partners. Like Gilbert Blythe. However,
there are so many “howevers” in life, I have some male friends that are also true,
valued friends.
What friendship means to me? It is trust, permanency, support,
understanding, fondness and many other warm and fuzzies. When I was a young
woman two of my very close friends died before they turned 30. They were my
first loses of friends. It was very painful but there was no betrayal or
rejection behind the end of those friendships. I wonder how far they would go.
Would they finish prematurely? Would they last till this day?
When some of my friendships finish, I hurt a lot and can not
understand it. Friendships do not finish. That is how it was in those books.
Friendships are forever. I still want to think that and believe in it. There is
a saying that I found at times comforting: Friends are for a reason, for a
season or for life. Yes, I have had seasonal friends in my life as well,
but those friends who are not “for life” are they real friends or are they my lapse
of judgment?
This Picasso painting represents women friendship to me |
I share your sentiments entirely but very often friendships end due to circumstances beyond our control. People change, situations change and our own attitude and values can change and we can find that some of our old friends do not share our current values and so end becomes inevitable.
ReplyDeleteI agree with your view, at least my mind agrees with it. Emotions are at times not that sensible. Thanks God I use my mind as well.
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